Whoa honey, didn't mean to crawl up your sleeve. Just wanted to help, I'm that kind of person, and I told you repeatedly that I wasn't trying to be arrogant. I didn't say that I can't dress how I like--I can dress however the hell I feel like, but I don't because I love my parents and want them to respect me and my choices. Don't go off on someone who's trying to help you, just tell them you don't want any of it, 'kay? You don't have to be mean.
You know what? I'm the oldest in a family of 8, soon to be 9, and never once have I spoken to my father that way. I'm not trying to be rude, but these next few sentences are going to come off as extremely offensive. My parents tell me I have to either dress a certain way, or buy my own clothes. Okay, I say, fair enough. So I save up my allowance and buy what I want. I apply for a job wherever they say they're taking applications. Unfortunately, at age 14, I can't get a job yet. But that doesn't stop me from trying...hell, I don't care if it's the Dairy Queen down the street. I treat my siblings and my parents with respect...and suddenly, they care what I think! Isn't that amazing? When I'm disrespectful, though, they disrespect me. Fair, right? Like I said, I'm not trying to be rude of arrogant, I'm just saying, give a little, get a little. You won't get anywhere in life believing that the whole world should be bowing at your feet giving you everything you want, or that the whole world's out to get you just because you're having a bad day. Believe me, I've been down that road before, it made me sick and depressed. I actually considered suicide once. But then I realized...the world is crazy shit, and if it didn't suck, we'd all fall off. So we just have to suck it up and take it like a grown up. If I'm only 14, and I realize that, where does that put you on the maturity scale? Again, I'm not being arrogant or rude. I'm trying to help. I'm only saying this, because I get offended when people tell me about THEIR lives on my journal entry, when I want help, not condescendance. I'm not condescending. This is my version of help, so either ignore it, or put it into action.
yeah im the oldest i know how it feels. ur rite i feel as if they just dont care either. everything will b okay soon enough it will come to pass[MrsDetroit]
I have these thoughts alot myself. And at times I wonder if I will snap and kill myself. But like the other commenter said, it does pass and I would suggest that you may want to think about talking to someone who will just listen, like myself. I understand that feelings are connected to thoughts and that to regress someone back in time to past experiences will help release the root thoughts and bring about peace. I have done this with quite a few people and it works well. To do this the right questions must be asked. So if you want someone to talk to, please ask me and then I will give you my email address.
Like I said, I get these thoughts but I ask mysef "who will continue on to accomplish my lifes purpose if I am no longer here?" "How will it effect the ones that actually do care about me?" and "who will it hurt most killing myself, me or them?"
One other thing to point out is that take a look at the world. Those who have killed themselves before us, did the world stop spinning and did time cease to exist? Did people other than they're loved ones soon not forget that person?
Since everyone in this world must look out for number one (themselves), they dont have time to continually care about those who kill themselves. They just say "what a shame" and they move one with they're lives.
This is a cold hard fact and it makes one feel alone. But we are never alone. Meditate and go deep within, outside of thought, and see that there is something conscious there watching, and that is who you truly are. You are that which can not be destroyed and you are eternal consciousness.
i hate to hear people beating themselves up about things and feeling depressed, but feelings like these always pass and you will feel better.don't take things too seriously and find time for yourself to let go from time to time, it will make a difference inthe long run.hope you feel better soon
same here. but there's alot of things you can do, you just havent realized it yet. mostly i feel useless.thats the definition of my name...yupp helps me feel alot better?except not.
Yeah ino that i shouldn't give up that easily. I just don't want to get my hopes up. I think i will still go for an animal career as i would enjoy it.
A fashion photographer that would be so interesting and fun compared to some office job. Money matters to too many people in this world being happy is far better.
Yea Nate is a hottie but i have a bad habit of always wanting the bad guy lol
i was thinking of reading the books but thought since i have seen the saw it mite spoil it but i think you have good taste so i will try to read the books aswel.
i would love that glamorous life aswel it even makes school look awesome.
That really sucks about your brother, my brothers old friend molested a five year old girl and i can't even look at him the same so it be awkward when its brother.
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